October 24, 2012


When I woke up on the morning of July 7th, I had a dream that I was pregnant and it felt so real that I had to check and see if I was.  Sure enough, two pink lines appeared and I was almost in disbelief that this was going to be happening all over again.

Since that day I've been waiting anxiously for two specific moments.  The first - the day we find out WHO it is that we're going to be welcoming into our family.  And the second - the day that I get to hold them in my arms for the very first time.  Though the second is far more exciting than the first I think.

But the first of those days has arrived. We get to find out "who" it is today.  Who has been making me crave chips and salsa?  Who is quietly moving within me and only gives me a flutter-a-day?  Who is this - the last baby that I will carry and, will for now, complete our family?

Because of my Rheumatoid Arthritis and many other auto-immune disease related concerns, we've decided not to have any more biological children.  Adoption has always been on my heart though and perhaps one day, we will add another little one to our family should God open that door for us.

It's a big day and I have so much emotion in my heart as we await the news.  It's no secret that my heart deeply longs for a daughter.  Yet, I feel at peace knowing that even if we do have another son, that God's best is always better than what I could have planned for myself.  I do have peace as I wait - that there will be joy and gladness and celebration, because He is gifting us and entrusting us with another precious child.

Today will change things though.  Today we'll finally be in on the secret that God let us in on July 7th.  Today we get to start specifically planning and dreaming for either our daughter or for another son.  Today we will get to put a name to who we are waiting for - Jacob Paul or Ruby Lynn.  The names we've held and cherished for a long, long time.

For now, I'll keep you in suspense.  And by Friday, you'll get to know who too.

1 comment:

  1. You are in my prayers! I hope it's a girl if that's what you really want - but whatever you're having - I hope it's a healthy bundle of joy :)