It's been hard to write beyond bullet points this week.
I've realized that I'm in this place of life where I have to schedule phone chats with friends and book people in advance on my calendar in order to see any of my friends. And I hate how this feels. I'm the kind of woman who deeply loves friendships and connection and the absence of them leaves me feeling like I have less and it disrupts how I can even function.
Working full-time again is kicking my butt. I miss my full day off on Fridays and I miss my day to work from home too. I miss Tommy and I feel like I'm missing out on him. I miss the stillness and quiet it provided for me. I miss mornings in my pajamas and coffee sipped from my favorite mug. I'm missing the ease of my old schedule. And in one way or another, I've kind of thrown a fit about it all that I'm missing because I can't change it and I wish that I could.
Instead of hitting the gym last night, I went to bed at 9pm. Exhaustion had set in and I knew my body needed some significant rest. And it was the good kind of sleep too because I woke up right before my alarm went off and I was almost ready to get up and take on the day. *almost* But it's nice to feel more refreshed and alert after getting some much needed rest.
And tonight, I'm going out with my sisters and my step-mom to celebrate her birthday. And if I can recall this correctly, I'm pretty sure it's the first time EVER we've done anything like this. I'm expecting for it to be pretty epic.
There isn't a lot on the agenda for the weekend and I'm grateful for that. Definitely looking forward to some down time.
So even though this was kind of all about nothing, I guess this is me trying to pick myself back up after a week full of disappointments, confusion and excessive bullet points.
Happy Friday everyone.