Prepping

It may be a bit early to claim that I'm nesting mode, but I totally am.  House-cleaning (unless it's scrubbing bath tubs or shower floors) is like my most favorite thing in the world right now.  I find myself wishing for free days so I could spend that time dusting and clearing clutter and organizing my kitchen cabinets.  It's sick right?

One week from today, we should find out WHO we are expecting.  And who it is that makes me crave chips and salsa on a daily basis.  Hopefully he/she is wiggling around enough to let us in on their identity.  It feels a bit surreal to know that I'll be at the halfway mark on Sunday - the time feels like it's flying.  But I am so ready to know if it's a little Jacob or a little Ruby that will be in our arms in just a little over four months.

In the mean time I've been sorting through baby stuff.  I have a pile of everything that needs to be washed and cleaned out and made ready for a new little one.  I've made lists of the things we will need all over again.  And I'm grateful for friends who have already offered to throw me a baby shower - girl or boy.    

A couple of weekends ago, I sorted through buckets full of baby boy clothes.  I admit, I got a little teary remembering Tommy in some of those precious onesies and silly outfits I had to have for him.  I had so much of it though that I decided to get rid of everything he never wore or anything I didn't like. 

But we are all set.  I found a cheap dresser at a garage sale.  An inexpensive (Pottery Barn brand) changing table online.  And some friends gave us a crib.  Nothing matches, but everything will be painted and refinished once we find out WHO we are expecting.  I have a couple of fun nursery ideas in mind, though it's going to have to be done on a very tight budget!

That's part of life these days.  Making room for another life in our home.  Creating space and dreaming about who they are and how it might feel to be a family of four instead of the three that we've known for three years now.