August 18, 2013

I've Been....

I've been rebelling against the late summer weather.  In the same week I wore both a scarf and a cardigan, though not together since it's still 100 degrees. 

I've been jamming out to Mumford and Sons lately.  I have no idea where this band has been my entire life and how I've lived without them.

I've been seeing contempt show up - the other-centered kind.  A lot.  And I think it's time to get to the bottom of what it's all about.

I've been waking up before 5:00am and it's getting a little old.  Though I've decided this is God's idea since I get out of bed and read my Bible and pray.  It's evident He's after more of my heart and will wake me up if He has to in order to get it.

I've been thankful for my husband.  Seriously - he's the greatest thing ever. 

I've been struggling with some old insecurity issues.  Between the contempt and the insecurities, something feels awry.   And I know I can't necessarily fix it, but the awareness of it is perhaps why God has me waking up long before dawn.

I've been printing pictures, updating Jacob's baby book, and putting new photos in old frames.  I love how pictures change the feel of my house - just with faces of people I love.

I've been adjusting to being a mother of two - and would quite honestly admit that I am still not adjusted. 

I've been walking and walking and walking.

I've been dreaming about a trip to the beach.  And hoping late September might bring one for us.

I've been noticing beauty.  Like captivating August sunrises.


  1. I hope you get your beach trip. Sounds like just the thing.

  2. late September is bringing a beach trip for us and I CAN'T WAIT!!! And I've been dealing with some serious insecurity as well...and trying to remind myself that I can't get rid of it on my own, but to follow after Jesus.

  3. You are a beautiful soul Jenn... and I think a wonderful momma.... Keep growing and moving forward my friend....

  4. I love Mumford and Sons!

    My mom use to always tell us that if we couldn't sleep it was because God needed us to read our bibles and pray. He wanted to connect with us. I believe it to be true to this day :)

  5. Girl. You're just onto Mumford?

    I hope the civil wars new album is next on your list.

    I think it's a constant adjustment to having children, they change every single day. Say's the non-mother.

  6. Ugh, the baby books. Child #1 has all the pictures and stuff stuck in hers as well as all the writing done. Child #2 has some writing, no pictures. Child #3 has an unopened baby book that she can someday sell mint condition at an antique store?